meeting, or in some sick hour, or in some revival moment. That is a blessed visitation which brings to the soul a realization of the capacity of God to love imperfect beings with infinite love, and which enables a man to adapt this truth to his shame-hours, his sorrow-hours, his love-hours and his selfish hours, and to find all the time that there is in the revelation of the love of God in Christ Jesus all-sufficient food for the soul. It is, indeed, almost to have the gate of heaven opened to you. The treasure is inexhaustible.

Out of that has grown something besides: for it is impossible for me to feel that Christ loves me with such an all-surrounding love, and to feel, as I do every day of my life, that he has to love me with imperfections, that he never loves me because I am symmet rical, never because I am good, never because I deserve his love, never because I am lovely, but always because he has the power of loving erring creaturesit is impossible for me to feel thus, and not get some insight into divine charity. Being conscious that he takes me with all my faults, I cannot but believe that he takes others with their faults-Roman Catholics, Swedenborgians, Unitarians, Universalists, and Christians of all sects and denominations; and of these, not only such as are least exceptionable, but such as are narrow-minded, such as are bigoted, such as are pugnacious, such as are unlovely. I believe that Christ finds much in them that he loves, but whether he finds much in them that he loves or not, he finds much in himself of capacity to love them. And so I have the feeling that in all churches, in all denominations, there

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is an elect, and Christ sees of the travail of his soul, and is satisfied.

That is not all. Aside from this catholicity of love of Christians in all sects and denominations, I have a sense of ownership in other people. It may seem rather fanciful, but it has been a source of abiding comfort to me for many years, that I owned everybody that was good for anything in life.

I came here, you know, under peculiar circumstances. I came just at the critical period of the antislavery movement; and I came without such endorsement as is usually considered necessary in city churches in the East. Owing to those independent personal habits that belonged to me, and that I acquired from my Western training, I never consulted brethren in the ministry as to what course I should pursue, but carried on my work as fast and as far as I could according to the enlightenment of my conscience. For years, as you will recollect, it excited remark, and various states of feeling. And so, I felt, always, as though I was not particularly acceptable to Christians beyond my own flock, with the exception of single individuals here and there in other churches. But I have felt, not resentful, and hardly regretful; for I have always had a sort of minor under-feeling, that when I was at home I was strong and all right, though I was conscious that outside of my own affectionate congregation I was looked upon with suspicion. This acting upon a nature proud enough, and sensitive enough, has wrought a kind of feeling that I never would intrude upon anybody, and never would ask any favor of anybody-as I never have had occasion

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to do; and I stood very much by myself. But I never felt any bitterness towards those who regarded me with disfavor. And I speak the truth, when I declare that I do not remember to have had towards any minister a feeling that I would have been afraid to have God review in the judgment day, and that I do not remember to have had towards any church or denomination a feeling that Christ would not approve. On the other hand, I have had positively and springing from my sense of the wonderful love with which I am loved, and with which the whole church is loved, the feeling that these very men who did not accept me or my work, were beloved of Christ, and were brethren to me; and I have said to them mentally, "I am your brother. You do not know it, but I am, and though you do not own me, I own you. All that is good in you is mine, and I am in sympathy with it. And you cannot keep me out of your church." I belong to the Presbyterian church. I belong to the Methodist church. I belong to the Baptist church. I belong to the Episcopal church. I belong to I belong to any church that has Christ in it. I go where he goes, and love what he loves. And I insist upon it that though those churches exclude me, they cannot keep me out. All those I have reason to believe Christ loves, I claim by virtue of the love that Christ has for me. Hence, I have a great sense of richness. I rejoice in everything that is good in all these denominations, and sorrow for everything that is bad, or that hinders the work of Christ in their hands. And I look, and wait, and long for that day when all Christians shall recognize each other.

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I think that people in the church are like persons riding in a stage at night. For hours they sit side by side, and shoulder to shoulder, not being able in the darkness to distinguish one another; but at last, when day breaks, and they look at each other, behold, they discover that they are friends and brothers.

So we are riding, I think, through the night of this earthly state, and do not know that we are brethren, though we sit shoulder to shoulder; but as the millennial dawn comes on, we shall find it out and all will be clear."

CHAPTER XIX.

B. GRATZ BROWN.

The effect of Western life on Character-The Lineage of Mr. Brown-The Hon. John Brown of Virginia, his Grandfather-Judge Mason Brown, of Kentucky, his Father-His Mother the daughter of the Hon. Jesse Bledsoe- B. Gratz graduates at Transylvania and Yale-Practicing Law in St. LouisEditing the Missouri “Democrat "—In the Legislature at the age of TwentyFive, and serves Six Years-His Conflict with the Slave Power-Personal Threats and Assault-A Free Soil Candidate for Governor in 1857-Delegate to the Chicago Convention in 1860-His Course in the War-The Capture of Fort Jackson-Commanding a Regiment in the Field-Elected to the United States Senate in 1863-Speeches for Impartial Suffrage and Amnesty-The Admission of Tennessee-His Return to Missouri-Fierce Political ContestReconstruction and Reconciliation-He is triumphantly Elected GovernorThe "Liberal" Party Movement-National Organization and Convention at Cincinnati-Horace Greeley for President and B. Gratz Brown for VicePresident-The Democratic Endorsement at Baltimore-Personal Character

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THE effect of Western life and manners upon the character of men, who, trained under even more restraining and refining influences, have migrated to that rapidly growing portion of our country, has been seen in many marked instances where men of modest New England birth have developed the highest characteristics of statesmanship, or have won enviable positions in the pulpit, at the bar, and in the forum. The culture of the west, its broad freedom and liberal ideas, gives a grand stimulus to every well directed ambition. Men who in the east would become discouraged by competitive struggles, seem to grasp for

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