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A SONG OF THE SOUL.

I.

I KNOW the splendid jessamines can fill

The air with perfume, and the breeze that brings
The magic odor has a power to thrill
The senses of the little bird who sings
In yonder thicket, and to give a tone
Of sorrow to his sweet, melodious moan.
I know the soft reflection of the stars

Is tremulous along the mighty stream;

I know that naught above deters or mars

The beauty of the mourning moon's faint gleam; And yet my spirit strangely seems to wear

A veil through which nor earth nor heaven is fair.

II.

I know a blessing cometh with a curse;
I know a waking cometh with a dream;
I know a better followeth a worse;

I know an ocean lies beyond the stream;

I know the perfume hath a power to bless;
I think the bird once sang of happiness ;-
Yet all is dust and ashes now: the light
Is bloody, and the air is filled with fire;
And nothing but the swift, o'erwhelming night
Can keep me from a vision grim and dire;
For night is pitiful, and hides the face
Which cannot lighten with repentant grace.

III.

I know a soul who lost a treasure fair;
Poor soul! it nursed a wild, consuming pain!
Dear soul!its sorrow was too hard to bear,
Yet soulfully it struggled, though in vain.
It rose to Heaven, and strode along the skies;
It delved to hell, and heard the demons' cries;
Then once again it took its place on earth,
Resolved to bear its bitter pang alone.
It could not move itself to worldly mirth,
But it had stronger, braver, purer grown ;
Yet, when it fell to thinking on its loss,
It seemed to murmur at its heavy cross.

IV.

The end of all things did it most desire
Save one eternal, sweet, delightful calm.
To that condition did it most aspire

Where it might find Oblivion's healing balm;
Yet never dared it hope forgetfulness
Would come to pity, linger o'er, and bless;
For in its struggles it had learned that sin

Keeps memory awake for evermore.

Sad soul! it could not hope to enter in

To rest, and shut behind it the world's door,
And so it bowed beneath its heavy load,
And stumbled on-along a weary road.

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A WEEK before Christmas day, 1870, the little town of Genoa, in the State of New York, exhibited, perhaps more strongly than at any other time, the bitter irony of its founders and sponsors. A driving snow-storm that had whitened every windward hedge, bush, wall and telegraph pole, played around this soft Italian capital, whirled in and out of the great staring wooden Doric columns of its post-office and hotel, beat upon the cold green shutters of its best houses, and powdered the angular, stiff, dark figures in its streets. From the level of the street the four principal churches of the town stood out

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road again they were utterly exhausted. "Let us go back," said Carrie.

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We'd never get across that field again," said Addy.

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'Let's stop at the first house, then," said Carrie.

"The first house," said Addy, peering through the gathering darkness, "is Squire She darted a mischievous glance at Carrie that even in her discomfort and fear brought the quick blood to her cheek.

to entirely develop the physical and moral
natures of its pupils; they conformed to the ex-
cellent dietary rules in public, and in private
drew upon the luxurious rations of their village
caterer; they attended church with exemplary
formality and flirted informally during service
with the village beaux; they received the best
and most judicious instruction during school
hours, and devoured the trashiest novels dur-Robinson's."
ing recess. The result of which was an aggre-
gation of quite healthy, quite human and very
charming young creatures, that reflected infi-
nite credit on the Institute. Even Mistress
Phillips, to whom they owed vast sums, ex-
hilarated by the exuberant spirits and youth-
ful freshness of her guests, declared that the
sight of "them young things" did her good,
and had even been known to shield them
by shameless equivocation.

"Four o'clock! girls, and if we're not back to prayers by five we'll be missed," said the tallest of these foolish virgins, with an aquiline nose and certain quiet élan that bespoke the leader, as she rose from her seat. "Have you got the books, Addy?" Addy displayed three dissipated-looking novels under her waterproof. "And the provisions, Carrie ?" Carrie showed a suspicious parcel filling the pocket of her sack. "All right then. Come girls, trudge. Charge it," she added, nodding to her host, as they passed toward the door. "I'll pay you when my quarter's allowance comes."

"No, Kate," interposed Carrie, producing her purse, "let me pay-it's my turn."

"Never," said Kate, arching her black brows loftily-" even if you do have rich relatives and regular remittances from California. Never. Come, girls-forward, march!"

As they opened the door a gust of wind nearly took them off their feet. Kind-hearted Mrs. Phillips was alarmed. "Sakes alive! galls, ye mussn't go out in sich weather; better let me send word to the Institoot and make ye up a nice bed to-night in my parlor." But the last sentence was lost in a chorus of halfsuppressed shrieks as the girls, hand in hand, ran down the steps into the storm and were at once whirled away.

The short December day, unlit by any sunset glow, was failing fast. It was quite dark already, and the air was thick with driving snow. For some distance their high spirits, youth, and even inexperience kept them bravely up, but in ambitiously attempting a short cut from the high road across an open field their strength gave out, the laugh grew less frequent and tears began to stand in Carrie's brown eyes. When they reached the

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"O yes," said Kate, with gloomy irony, 'certainly, stop at the Squire's by all means. and be invited to tea, and be driven home after tea by your dear friend Mr. Harry, with a formal apology from Mrs. Robinson, and hopes that the young ladies may be excused this time. No," continued Kate, with sudden energy, "that may suit you-but I'm going back as I came by the window-or not at all." Then she pounced suddenly, like a hawk, on Carrie, who was betraying a tendency to sit down on a snow-bank and whimper, and shook her briskly. "You'll be going to sleep next. Stay, hold your tongues, all of you— what's that?"

It was the sound of sleigh-bells. Coming down toward them out of the darkness was a sleigh with a single occupant. "Hold down your heads, girls, if it's anybody that knows us-we're lost." But it was not, for a voice strange to their ears, but withal very kindly and pleasant, asked if its owner could be of any help to them. As they turned toward him they saw it was a man wrapped in a handsome sealskin cloak, wearing a sealskin cap-his face, half concealed by a muffler of the same material, disclosing only a pair of long moustaches and two keen dark eyes. "It's a son of old Santa Claus," whispered Addie. The girls tittered audibly as they tumbled into the sleigh-they had regained their former spirits. "Where shall I take you?" said the stranger, quietly. There was a hurried whispering, and then Kate said boldly, "To the Institute." They drove silently up the hill until the long ascetic building loomed up before them. The stranger reined up suddenly. "You know the way better than I," he said, "where do you go in ?"-"Through the back window," said Kate, with sudden and appalling frankness. "I see!" responded their strange driver quietly, and alighting quickly, removed the bells from the horses. "We can drive as near as you please now," he added by way of explanation. "He certainly is a son of Santa Claus," whispered Addie; "hadn't we better ask after

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his father ?"-"Hush," said Kate, decidedly. "He is an angel, I dare say." She added, with a delicious irrelevance, which was however perfectly understood by her feminine auditors. "We are looking like three frights!"

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Cautiously skirting the fences, they at last pulled up a few feet from a dark wall. The stranger proceeded to assist them to alight. There was still some light from the reflected snow, and as he handed his fair companions to the ground each was conscious of undergoing an intense though respectful scrutiny. assisted them gravely to open the window, and then discreetly retired to the sleigh until the difficult and somewhat discomposing ingress was made. He then walked to the window. "Thank you and good night" whispered three voices. A single figure still lingered. The stranger leaned over the window-sill. "Will you permit me to light my cigar here? it might attract attention if I struck a match outside." By the upspringing light he saw the figure of Kate very charmingly framed in by the window. The match burnt slowly out in his fingers. Kate smiled mischievously. The astute young woman had detected the pitiable subterfuge. For what else did she stand at the head of her class, and had doting parents paid three years' tuition ?

The storin had past, and the sun was shining quite cheerily in the eastern recitationroom the next morning, when Miss Kate, whose seat was nearest the window, placing her hand pathetically upon her heart, affected to fall in bashful and extreme agitation upon the shoulder of Carrie her neighbor. "He has come," she gasped in a thrilling whisper. "Who?" asked Carrie sympathetically, who never clearly understood when Kate was in earnest. "Who?-why the man who rescued us last night! I saw him drive to the door this moment. Don't speak-I shall be better in a moment, there!" she said, and the shameless hypocrite passed her hand pathetically across her forehead with a tragic air.

"What can he want?" asked Carrie, whose curiosity was excited.

"I don't know," said Kate, suddenly relapsing into gloomy cynicism. "Possibly to put his five daughters to school. Perhaps to finish his young wife and warn her against

US."

"He didn't look old, and he didn't seem like a married man," rejoined Addie thoughtfully.

"That was his art, you poor creature!"

returned Kate scornfully; "you can never tell anything of these men-they are SO deceitful. Besides, it's just my fate!"

"Why Kate," began Carrie, in serious con

cern.

"Hush, Miss Walker is saying something," said Kate laughing.

"The young ladies will please give attention," said a slow perfunctory voice. "Miss Carrie Tretherick is wanted in the parlor." Meantime Mr. Jack Prince, the name given on the card and various letters and credentials submitted to the Rev. Mr. Crammer, paced the somewhat severe apartment known publicly as the "Reception Parlor," and privately to the pupils as "Purgatory." His keen eyes had taken in the various rigid details, from the flat steam "Radiator" like an enormous japanned soda-cracker that heated one end of the room, to the monumental bust of Dr. Crammer that hopelessly chilled the other; from the Lord's Prayer, executed by a former writing-master in such gratuitous variety of elegant calligraphic trifling as to considerably abate the serious value of the composition, to three views of Genoa from the Institute, which nobody ever recognized, taken on the spot by the drawing teacher; from two illuminated texts of Scripture in an English letter, so gratuitously and hideously remote as to chill all human interest, to a large photograph of the senior class, in which the prettiest girls were Ethiopian in complexion, and sat (apparently) on each other's heads and shoulders:-his fingers had turned listlessly the leaves of school catalogues, the sermons of Dr. Crammer, the poems of Henry Kirke White, the Lays of the Sanctuary and Lives of Celebrated Women;-his fancy, and it was a nervously active one, had gone over the partings and greetings that must have taken place here, and wondered why the apartment had yet caught. so little of the flavor of humanity;-indeed, I am afraid he had almost forgotten the object of his visit when the door opened and Carrie Tretherick stood before him.

It was one of those faces he had seen the night before, prettier even than it had seemed then,--and yet I think he was conscious of some disappointment, without knowing exactly why. Her abundant waving hair was of a guinea-golden tint, her complexion of a peculiar flower-like delicacy, her brown eyes of the color of sea-weed in deep water. certainly was not her beauty that disappointed him.

Without possessing his sensitiveness to impression, Carrie was, on her part, quite as

vaguely ill at ease.

She saw before her one of those men whom the sex would vaguely generalize as "nice" that is to say, correct in all the superficial appointments of style, dress, manners and feature. Yet there was a decidedly unconventional quality about himhe was totally unlike anything or anybody that she could remember, and, as the attributes of originality are often as apt to alarm as to attract people, she was not entirely prepossessed in his favor.

"I can hardly hope," he began pleasantly, "that you remember me. It is eleven years ago, and you were a very little girl. I am afraid I cannot even claim to have enjoyed that familiarity that might exist between a child of six and a young man of twenty-one. I don't think I was fond of children. But I knew your mother very well. I was editor of the Avalanche in Fiddletown when she took you to San Francisco."

"You mean my stepmother-she wasn't my mother, you know," interposed Carrie hastily.

Mr. Prince looked at her curiously. "1 mean your stepmother," he said gravely. "I never had the pleasure of meeting your

mother."

"No, mother hasn't been in California these twelve years."

There was an intentional emphasizing of the title and of its distinction, that began to coldly interest Prince after his first astonishment was past.

"As I come from your stepmother now," he went on, with a slight laugh, "I must ask you to go back for a few moments to that point. After your father's death, your mother -I mean your stepmother-recognized the fact. that your mother, the first Mrs. Tretherick, was legally and morally your guardian, and although much against her inclination and affections, placed you again in her charge."

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My stepmother married again within a month after father died, and sent me home," said Carrie with great directness, and the faintest toss of her head.

Mr. Prince smiled so sweetly, and apparently so sympathetically, that Carrie began to like him. With no other notice of the interruption he went on: "After your stepmother had performed this act of simple justice, she entered into an agreement with your mother to defray the expenses of your education until your eighteenth year, when you were to elect and choose which of the two should thereafter be your guardian, and with whom you would make your home. This agree

ment, I think, you are already aware of, and I believe knew at the time."

"I was a mere child then," said Carrie. "Certainly," said Mr. Prince, with the same smile; "still the conditions, I think, have never been oppressive to you nor your mother, and the only time they are likely to give you the least uneasiness will be when you come to make up your mind in the choice of your guardian. That will be on your eighteenth birthday-the 20th, I think, of the present month."

Carrie was silent.

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Pray do not think that I am here to receive your decision-even if it be already made. I only came to inform you that your stepmother, Mrs. Starbottle, will be in town to-morrow, and will pass a few days at the hotel. If it is your wish to see her before you make up your mind she will be glad to meet you. She does not, however, wish to do anything to influence your judgment." "Does mother know she is coming," said Carrie, hastily.

I do not know," said Prince gravely; "I only know that if you conclude to see Mrs. Starbottle, it will be with your mother's permission. Mrs. Starbottle will keep sacredly this part of the agreement, made ten years ago. But her health is very poor, and the change and country quiet of a few days may benefit her." Mr. Prince bent his keen bright eyes upon the young girl, and almost held his breath until she spoke again.

"Mother's coming up to-day or to-morrow," she said, looking up.

"Ah!" said Mr. Prince, with a sweet and languid smile.

"Is Col. Starbottle here too," asked Carrie, after a pause.

"Col. Starbottle is dead-your stepmother is again a widow."

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Dead," repeated Carrie.

"Yes," replied Mr. Prince, "your stepmother has been singularly unfortunate in surviving her affections."

Carrie did not know what he meant, and looked so. Mr. Prince smiled reassuringly. Presently Carrie began to whimper. Mr. Prince softly stepped beside her chair. "I am afraid," he said, with a very peculiar light in his eye, and a singular dropping of the corners of his moustache, "I am afraid you are taking this too deeply. It will be some days before you are called upon to make a decision. Let us talk of something else. I hope you caught no cold last even

ing." Carrie's face shone out again in dimples.

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