day. School has been large and pleasant. Had forty this afternoon. I have been in good spirits, and the scholars appeared so, too. In fact, I have felt quite happy all day. This evening I have made two visits one at Deacon's, a fine old man of sixty-eight, who has a very comfortable home, quite a property, a social wife, and a handsome niece living with him; the other at Mr.'s, who has also a comfortable home, with a fine wife and three children. They are all boys, and all come to school. They came part way home with me, and commenced talking about the stars. I pointed out some of the finest constellations and brightest stars, giving some of their names. They appeared interested and desirous of knowing more, were very respectful, and seemed happy to have my company. I was no less so to have theirs. It really did me good. I wish I could be with a few of my scholars at a time every evening. I do not like to see them shy of me. I want to be free, candid, and familiar with them; I want to make them feel that I am not merely their 'master,' but their real teacher and friend. This day has been one of hope; may it not be succeeded by a morrow of disappointment! Wilt thou bless it, O Father, from whom all our blessings flow! May I receive fresh encouragement and renewed strength to press forward in the responsible work I have undertaken, doing nothing to the injury of my little flock, but with thy assistance bringing them nearer and nearer to thee!"

Kingston, Jan. 3, 1849: "I have to-day attempted a little matter of discipline which may be worth re

cording. I have noticed for several days small balls of paper in considerable numbers upon the floor, and had discovered two of the rogues who helped to get them there, but had not informed them of it, as I was satisfied there must be others. After all the books were laid aside this forenoon, I mentioned the circumstance, and also that I knew two of the offenders, but did not give their names. I spoke some time of the wrongfulness of the act; that the fact that they had tried to conceal it was strong evidence that those scholars who had performed it knew it was wrong and that they might justly deserve punishment; but that I was in hopes the thing might be stopped without it. Here one of the boys voluntarily confessed himself guilty, and gave to me the instrument he had used to blow the paper about the room. I then asked all who would be willing to acknowledge the fault, had they committed it, to rise. All rose. I then asked all who had done so to rise. Eight of the boys rose, several of whom, without my asking, resolved that they should not do so again. I then asked how many were willing to join in the resolution, and found that all were. Then I told them I should inquire at the close of the week how many had kept their resolution. It has been kept well this afternoon, as far as I have observed."

Kingston, Feb. 4, 1849: "A week ago to-day I went over to Duxbury to see Mr. Kendall, and had the good fortune to meet some other Normal friends. I had a very fine visit, well worth the walk over and back again. I have come back, though, with my desires for going to College rekindled. Mr. Kendall

will enter at next Commencement

I wish I were

ready to go with him, but how I am to go is not yet revealed to me. Sometimes I feel as though I would say, I will go, and will press forward in spite of all opposition until my will is affected."

Sandwich, May 20, 1849: "The characteristic unfixedness of my vocation has at length brought me here, just into the limits of Cape Cod. I engaged a school here, before I went home after my winter's siege in Kingston. . . . My winter's labors, trials, and failures had somewhat diminished my zeal; they had given me a truer and more practical sense of the duties, responsibilities, and difficulties of the profession I had chosen, and had taught me the useful, though humiliating fact, that I possessed not the ability to do what I had once looked upon as an easy task, or rather no task at all. But, though I had gained a more perfect knowledge of my inability for the work of teaching, though my ambition was somewhat humbled, my hopes crushed, my prospects clouded, yet duty pointed out no other course of life; inclination fastened upon no easier nor more lucra tive employment. To become a teacher had long been the object of my desires, for which I had in some measure prepared myself, and to attain which I had met some crosses, encountered some opposition at the risk of being thought wanting in filial duty, made some sacrifices. Thank Heaven that my purpose was too fixed, my plan of life too far matured, to be overthrown by fickle fortune or undermined by dark discouragement. Most rejoiced was I, when I reached home, to find that I should

no longer have to oppose a father's wishes by continuing in the course I had commenced. His views seemed more nearly to accord with my own than they had ever done before. He was perfectly willing, and I think considered it best, that I should pursue teaching; indeed, I did not complete my engagement here, until he freely expressed his consent. I can now labor more easily, more freely; a burden seems lifted from my shoulders. But I fear I have soon again to oppose his wishes, or give up hopes which have long lived in my bosom with little prospect of becoming realities, until recently, when they have assumed the more definite form of plans, only awaiting time to become actions. I have finally formed the determination to go to college, and have even set the day. If all things go favorably till then, I think of entering one year from next Commencement. Am going to spend all my spare time this summer in preparing. I am induced to take this step, not because I think college celebrity is necessary to success, but because I think college study will make me more useful. Men to become selftaught must possess a peculiar turn of mind, and it will not do for all or for many to trust to themselves. I am aware I shall go among numerous temptations, but I believe I shall be preserved. We live in a world of temptation which we cannot shun, but must meet. No one can live through the college course without being strengthened in virtue or tainted with. vice. The former is certainly desirable, and by caution, watchfulness, and prayer can be attained." North Dartmouth, June 26, 1849: "Rose at half

past four. Dressed and went into the garden, and worked, with the exception of twenty minutes for breakfast, till half past eight. Came in, bathed, changed clothes, and commenced studying at nine — continued till twelve-read six pages of Cæsar. Was intending to study Greek this afternoon, but father wanted me to make hay, which I have done; and, to testify to it, I have six fine blisters upon my hands my shoulders feel lame and my legs very stiff. This evening I have read three and a half more pages of Cæsar, which finishes the fourth book. I commenced it last night; there are seventeen and a half pages in it. The clock strikes ten, and I must go to bed. Rise to-morrow morning at four."

North Dartmouth, June 27, 1849: "Have been to monthly meeting. There were several strange ministers present, two from England. One of them delivered a long discourse on the commencement and experience of the true Christian. I presume it was good Quaker doctrine, but it savored too much of human depravity' and of 'self-abhorrence' to suit my taste. I cannot understand why we should so utterly and completely abhor ourselves. God has made us, and should we abhor any of his works? We should abhor and endeavor to cast out the sin that is within us; but that we are all sin I cannot believe. A great deal of Quaker theology grows more and more mysterious to me, the more I think about it. I have always considered myself a Quaker on all the great points of their doctrine, but it is merely because I have been accustomed to take them as truth without any thought at all. I am in